2024-05-15 | 01:08:40 PM
It’s one of those days that I don’t feel like doing the stuff I need to be doing. Part of it’s because I’m transitioning from a week of not managing my academic workload to now managing it again. It’s no excuse, though, and I know have no option but to tough it out.
My brain used to treat these journaling exerices as a relaxing time — now I think it wants to sleep more than to write (or to think). I think that’s majorly because I haven’t been sleeping properly the past few days. There were times that I spent my time scrolling through r/nosurf to see if I could find something useful. There were also times that I procrastinated on sleeping because I was so enamored with an idea.1
Though it’s a nice experience to be completely absorbed by an idea that I seem to stop noticing the passing of time, I feel as if I really need to keep it in control so that I become focused at the right times, not on unusual times such as, for example, when I need to sleep.
2024-05-15 | 07:22:37 PM
I am writing this using my phone at the moment, using an app called Working Copy. I’m testing it out to see if I can efficiently log my journal through my iPhone > GitHub > Public Journal. So far I think it’s really promising. I’m on the trial version of the app at the moment but I’ll look to buy it when I get the chance.
2024-05-15 | 10:35:43 PM
Hey there. I’m getting really tired of testing Working Copy.. It’s really complicated to use Git to manage the versions of my public journal but I really want to learn it.
I guess it’s not like before anymore when I can brute force learning difficult things. I need to actually dedicate time to this before I could properly use it and integrate it into my workflow. I did not code today, and honestly I don’t intend to anymore since I already spent so much time tinkering with Working Copy and GitHub. It’s still a nice experience to learn about it though. It’s just really frustrating because there’s literally no one to guide me (even the Discord communities I’m a part of couldn’t answer my questions and concerns without me feeling like I need to learn the fundamentals on my own). It’s not really a bad thing though, it’s just… kinda sad. But it is what it is. After all, there’s a lot of online resources that I could uitilize. It’s not really their fault that I’m still a n00b at this.
2024-05-15 | 10:56:30 PM
Also, hi there. I’m currently writing using my mobile. I’ll attach a video here so you could see:
A video of me typing on Obsidian Mobile
I don’t know what to put here besides this: it’s kinda stressful being at a place in life where I feel like everything around me’s moving fast. So fast, in fact, that I feel like I could rarely keep up. It could explain why I’d felt so stressed recently — because I feel as if I’m behind a lot of people. The FOMO is extremely strong at this age, and I feel like I’m years and years behind my peers.
Of course, there are lots of things to counter this:
- I’m already working and I have a fair amount of experiences, despite being an undergraduate.
- I have a variety of interests on different topics, which you could observe on this website.
- I have a proclivity for reading and writing, whereas a bunch of people in this day and age doesn’t.
- I have a wide range of knowledge on distinguishable topics such as design, art, philisophy, etc.
- … and many more!
But I reallly couldn’t escape from feeling like I’m not quite enough. That there’s always someone better out there, someone more creative, more curious, more diligent, more this, more that.
Anyway, it’s enough of that. I’m going to write my formal excuse to my dev log.
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Some examples for this include contexts, digital minimalism, and minimalism, among others. ↩